The years that I have maintained this blog have chronicled over a decade of goings-on in America, the world, and my life and family. I had no idea what was in store. March 1st of 2012 I began posting. I started building this site by posting many writings I had already written throughout my life, each on their own page, and began posting daily on the blogstream as the main page.

My how America, our world, and my life and family changed over that span in ways I could never have imagined.

If you have been around a while, you know my content has been eclectic. All over the map, as they say. A blog about everything, and nothing in particular.

I started with the free WordPress version, and over time, I went to one of the premium themes offered by WordPress. Business version, then last year, scaled back to Personal theme, sort of a basic tier paid version. Each year when that renewal time came around, I would pray and assess which way to go. I started getting the notifications in September, I think, that  the renewal date was coming up in November. I asked the Lord for a very specific sign, whether to stay with a paid premium theme, or let it expire and revert back to the free basic version. Mind you, all of my knowledge of blogging, and tech, and content creation, could fit in a thimble and has been a matter of fumblinly learning as I went. Starting out, WordPress has cultivated a great community, and a great platform, with tutorials and all sorts of help. But like an alien in an unfamiliar land, figuratively not even knowing the language, all that is pretty overwhelming and daunting, however fellow bloggers were always open to my asking how they did this or that, how to use various features, etc, not to mention all the helps offered by WordPress. There’s much there which I never tapped into because my particular blog is not about competing for traffic, or promoting a business pr cause. I basically had a little aptitude in writing, things to share, and approached it as casting my bread upon the waters to see what the Lord would do with it.

When I asked for direction, and a sign (as well as a confirmation) as to whether I was to keep blogging, and if so, whether to renew a premium theme, I was very specific including asking for the sign and second witness to occur by the time of that theme renewal date. Premium themes give some extra features, statistics, and search engine optimization, thus more exposure, which theoretically should  mean more traffic, as long as you are cranking out that content consistently, that is. Therein lies the conundrum!

Since really about 2016 and 2017, when some things happened that really wounded my spirit, followed by a health relapse, and deterioration and collapse of a hip joint then early 2020 a surgery, then covid and in 2022 I starting to care for my Mom. Well, in all of that I have become very depleted. That was all on top of my baseline chronic conditions I live with.

I usually think I know what God  is doing with the endeavors He puts me onto and where it’s headed, and what the purpose is. Yet time and again, I eventially come to the realization once more, that His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts. He has purposes that never occured to me, and whatever I think my priorities should be, often are stacked very differently than His priorities for me.

When I asked for a sign, something did happen that was almost what I asked for as the sign. God doesn’t do almost. Nice try, devil, but God is not the author of confusion. Maybe God doesn’t want me trying to figure stuff out by asking for signs. Maybe He isn’t ok with my arbitrary deadline. In fact, He probably isn’t, because when God wants things to be perfectly clear for us, He sometimes likes to let the situation linger beyond a point of no return, so that when He does respond, it leaves absolutely no doubt He has determined the outcome in His sovereignty.

Since the expiration date has come and gone, the premium option has expired. Basic free version of WordPress allows a 3 GB upload limit for all media, whether mp3, video, or photos, and I had accumulated 6GB, I needed to cull over half of the images and other files. I had already removed half of over 8000 posts, but didn’t realize that doesn’t remove their accompanying photos from my blog’s media library. Now, while I have done a lot of my own original writing on here, and uploaded many photos, another aspect of the blog is that of news agregator. That is to repost or link to news articles and content of others. When that happens, usually at least one of the photos from the original source, come along with the blurb from their content. Regardless, if it posts on my blog, any included photos become a part of my library.

So I first culled all the unattached images and audio or video files from posts I had previously deleted. Then started on another bout of culling old news posts. Haven’t gotten far on that round yet because I have very little mental RAM, and with 3 sleep disorders, the old disk defragmentor of my brain, is neither efficient nor speedy. In other words, after hours on end, of going through images one by one,  my brain was mush.

But it was kind of trippy to revisit the past 12 years over the course of a few days.

See if the following words don’t take you back, if you’ve followed the past 12 years, all are among the topics I have covered over the interim.

JadeHelm, George Floyd, J6, Sandy Hook, The Squad, “taking a knee”, New World Order, Release the Kraken, Human trafficking, Benghazi, Herricane Katrina, Epstein Island, Michael Brown, The Kenosha Kid, “That mf’er is NOT REAL”, Miami Mall Aliens, HAARP, the Mandela Effect, “Stolen Election”, Lockdowns, Bastille Day massacre, Pulse Nightclub, Boston Bombing, “disinformation”, FEMA, Homeland Security, Demon Face, Margory Stoneman Douglas, “crisis actors”, black swan, false flag, Aurora Theatre shooting, Emanuel Baptist-Chareston, “Yes We Can”, “Michael and I” “Gender fluid”, furries, Abrahamic Family House, Ravi Zaccharias, Antifa, Proud Boys, October 7th, “the Great Falling Away” Obergfell vs Hodges, Q-Anon, Prophecy Updates, Chronic Illness, Hearing Impairment….. I could go on and on.

On the personal level, my family from 2 teenage boys in High School, their graduations and entrance into the military, various room makeovers, our yard and garden, and front porch oasis, my art and my crafts, loss of a dear family friend and neighbor, sudden loss of my Dad, my husband’s cancer journey, my health struggles and frustrations with the medical establishment, the decline and care of my Mom and her subsequent passing, my blogged autobiography, my memoirs, frequently used terms and phrases like “randomocity”, “planning interferes with my process” and “what tha blue flying monkies”. Soap box rants now and then. Some devotional posts, encouragements, testimonies, prayer requests, humor, heart, grief, laughter, and vulnerability. I brought you information, but more importantly, I think, was introducing so many good sources of information and solid Bible teachers.

Readers and followers have come and gone as focus was perpetually in flux, but a handful of you guys have stuck by through every twist and turn, climb and drop, season and holiday and milestone.

It has been a blessing and privilege to be a part of this time in history, and a small  supporting role in God’s unfolding plan for the end if this age, and rub shoulders with so many brothers and sisters throughout the remnant near and far.

We still do not know what’s next, how much is left to be experienced and witnessed before the rapture and I still don’t know God’s will and plan for this blog going forward, but I do know He has  prompted my culling of old news, and having this platform ready to be left behind for however much time it may remain accessible should I leave this Earth anytime soon. I’m not done with the clean-out. It’s possible He is about to do a new work here, and there needed to be a purge to make room for what is next.

I am sixty now, and tired as someone a generation ago who was 90. Every day I hope to hear that trumpet, but I equally long for my loved ones to all be saved, and for myself be used by the Lord. Where in my younger years, I was prone to charge ahead, for once in my life, I am being still, just knowing He is God, and waiting on Him rarher than try and make something happen or make myself the person He wants me to be. My life has felt like a really long haul. Every life is different, and that is the way it is supposed to be. Some learn early, some learn late. Some grow fast and some grow slow and steady. Some are surface dwellers and some dwell in the murky depths. I have to remind myself I am a tool in God’s toolbox. He has some tools that serve many purposes, and specialty tools designed for very specific functions, but no tool can do anything on it’s own. The master carpenter/mechanic/surgeon/artist is the One Who has the knowledge, skill, vision and plan. I think I’ve probably not done as much waiting on the Lord as I should, and too much leaning on my own understanding. We all get weary, falter, screw up, cede ground, from time to time. Growth is cyclical, seasonal. I suppose this is a laying down of this work, at the alter. Sometimes God wants to move you to the next thing, but in order to do that, you have to let go of some other thing. Sometimes He has to take something away, work on you before He gives it back. Either way, it’s in His hands.