I can feel this thing winding down

I can feel things winding down. Do you guys feel that? Like we are down to the wire? I have felt a solemnty in knowing that wrath is getting ready to fall on the Earth.

I listened to a 911 call recently from a man in one of the twin towers. He was desperately trying to tell the 911 operator where in the building he was. There was static, and the extreme noise of fire, (did you know a fire is very loud when you are in it or surrounded?) and a lot of “what, say that again, I couldn’t understand you'” and then you hear the man’s already extremely panicked voice go 2 more octaves up and turn into the most horrifying man-scream as he watched the nose of the 2nd plane emerge through the dustcloud seconds before it come through the window he was standing in front of, and disintegrate him into chunks and dust. I say it that way, because his was one of the deceased who left some body part intact enough to identify who it was by DNA. Tragedy upon tragedy upon tragedy is headed for this world.

That was a few degrees deeper into the 911 event than most of the many stories I have read. I could never be a 911 dispatcher. I imagine the rate of PTSD in that line of work, is close to that of the officers themselves and combat vets. Cops see things, but dispatchers are often right there hearing the absolute terror the caller is experiencing, so they are closer to it than the officers at times. That is how we should think of the lost, in regards to what people are going to experience.

The “tachometer” is pretty high already, but huge catastrophic things are going to continue to happen, with less time between one and the next.

The falling away from true doctrine is already much further advanced than most realize. The rate at which the pastors are throwing in their lot with the Marxists, and the ever-breaking stories of abuses that have happened in the context of church. I want rid of that vile thing called sin, that we carry in our own body. We understand it’s lethal nature the way a former addict truly knows the cost of using. We will go soon, but there are so many lost people still.

One of the scariest passages in scripture is Matthew 7: 22-23
22Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? 23And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.

The fact people can think they are saved, who aren’t, should cause anyone who claims the name of Christ to examine themselves. (2 Corinthians 13:5)

I have had something like a blanket of sadness come over me the past couple of days. There are things we all can look back and wish we had done better, but the Bridegroom is coming. This is the only existance we have known, and we still have minds that are not glorified, so I think it is natural to feel some sadness and mentally say your goodbyes to some of what was good in this life. Then there are the friends and loved ones who reject the gospel, and some we know who profess Christ, but you wonder because of how they are living, and the sadness of those things is in the mix too.

It’s solumn much like a funeral. The seriousness of death, and the ultimate death of rejecting the work Christ did on our behalf. And the ones who scoff, who have such ignorance, often willful, and speak of the things of God with disdain and disgust. I am happy about the soon going,

I don’t breathe one single breath devoid of the knowledge I am a sinner. When you land on a blog or channel of a legalist, if your conscience is still tender it’s very easy to start feeling a false guilt. Conviction is very different from guilt. The act of foot washing is an illustration of the fact that even when we are saved and forgiven, we still gotta walk in this realm. We are going to be touched by sin in the course of our days, but we don’t lose our salvation, (don’t need washed in the blood all over again). We know if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive our sins.

When Jesus died for our sins, 100% of our own personal sins had not taken place yet, because none of us was born yet.

You know, not realizing that fact, never having anyone expressly point that out to me, my life would have been very different had I seen that truth way earlier. Christians can fall into sin. Especially new Christians. When you think keeping yourself saved is up to you, and then you screw up, you can feel like there isn’t anymore grace, you feel like you can never make up for it and it can start to feel hopeless. The good news is, you are correct, you can’t fix it, you can’t undo many things, and you can’t make up for that. Only God can. That is why Jesus had to die. You may feel like you have messed up beyond fixing, but amazinly, God can work wonders in restiration! You can’t do anything bad enough that His blood can’t cover it, but you do have to put your trust in that blood. For a Christian who messes up, you have to realize that, like I said, you were not even born when He paid for your future sin. That is also why you can’t become unsaved if you were ever truly saved. Jesus said.
And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. No man. Is no man. Not even the man himself who was saved. If he was indeed saved. Salvation is a death and new birth. A new Baby can’t unbirth himself, he can’t go back into the womb and undifferentiate his cells, get back to a separated sperm and egg. A new life, that is eternal, cannot “ungrow” by choice.

I have always felt that in my particular generation and those after at least, kids who grow up in church often have one disadvantage that can create situations that don’t end well. It’s the fact they are so steeped in the church environment, it is easy for them to adopt all of the distinctions and mannerisms, but not have the understanding. It is easy especially for compliant types of kids.

If you have mature understanding, you will remember grace through faith not by works. Works should follow. But many legalists work very hard, and that isn’t bad in and of itself, as long as they don’t get proud about it and think it makes them better, or “less bad” than others. Salvation has no heirarchy.

Likewise, it is good to spur fellow believers toward good works, but you meet some, and you can usually tell, who don’t spur you to good works for the Lord’s sake, or for the sake of your earning crowns and rulership with Christ in His kingdom as rewards, rather they spur you to works because they work so hard and resent the liberty they see you have. That is often driven by a yoke of false guilt, for sin God erased from our records when Jesus became sin for us. They are like the parable of the hired workers, where the master reminds the workers who worked a whole day, that he paid them a full days wages, which is what they agreed to, and that it is really none of their affair what he chooses to pay the same to the late-coming workers who worked only a few hours. His generosity to one, does not dimimish or alter his contract with them, and he certainly has not reneged on the terms they agreed to. His point is He didn’t owe it to any of them to give them work so they can feed their families, but if He chooses to be more gracious with someone who needs grace just as much as the others, the gift is His to give.

To put it succinctly, anything He gives us, when we actually deserve hell, we should be satisfied with, and very thankful for. It takes some years for most of us to see the scope of it all, including our sin nature. To take that principle a little further, and apply it to our sanctification, We aren’t the judge of how far a person ought to be in their growth and understanding of God and being this new creature. Acts 17: 30And the times of this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent: 31Because he hath appointed a day, in the which he will judge the world in righteousness by that man whom he hath ordained; whereof he hath given assurance unto all men, in that he hath raised him from the dead.

God doesn’t excuse sin, and He doesn’t pick and choose whom is eligable for salvation. Jesus tasted death for every man and died for the sins of the whole world. When it says God “winked” at these times of ignorance, it means He has some patience. This was Paul speaking to the men of Athens, who had erected an altar to “the unknown god” and worshipped many gods. God tolerates things for a period, but there will always be accountability. The resentful workers and legalists, need to understand that God deals with people as individuals. Maybe the one who seems not to work, is the guy who fasts and prays, grabbing hold to the foot of the throne, doing spiritual warfare that an excellent Sunday school teacher doesn’t know how to do. Teacher’s work is visible. He doesn’t comprehend, much less understand the act of agonizing in intercessory prayer on behalf of others.

Don’t worry. God keeps track of the lazy servant. What do you think all those parables are about. They tell us what God will be looking at that will determine our position and job in the eternal kingdom. I think of it using Earth terminology this way: a Christian who serves out of pure motives, love and gratitude, and for whom serving the Lord is what his life is totally about, is building a huge treasure chest that God is going to fill. A Christian who is loving this world, does not consume the Word on their own at all, and therefore is not useful for the Lord in this life, is building a matcbook sized treasure chest. Then there are people if every level of service in between. Every treasure chest will be full. You might say we will each be as happy as can be, but the matcbook guy’s happy is going to be very different from the first guy. What is sacrificed, submitted and surrendered to God here, is traded for something better for our treasure chest over there. Some rewards will be for bearing with grace and acceptance, something God allows to be put upon you. Like Joni Erickson Tada. She wrestled, but ultimately surrendered to God’s right to do what He wants with what He created, even us. It is a simplistc illustration, but I think it helps make the concept easier to wrap your mind around. Joni is an inspiration to millions. Look at what the cost was. She didn’t ask for it or cause it on purpose or in foolishness. It didn’t break her faith. She struggled and railed at God, but surrendered. And I am sure she has to make that decision again and again, when frustration runs high, and anger wells up and she has to subdue that flesh back into submission to God. God knows His kids. He knows what we can handle, and how we will respond. Maybe He wanted Joni to have an opportunity to build a really big treasure chest for her eternity, and gave her an opportunity to rise to a significant challenge in order to teap thise treasures.

I think one of my mistakes over the course of life and my walk with the Lord, has been to not remain aware of just how individually God crafts our personalized opportunities, and tests. We all do that. We look around, see people who seem to be the example of what we want to be, and even if we never emulate that person, we compare. That’s literally like comparing apples to oranges. Live and learn.

How we see and perceive our life, our success or failure to please Him, I suspect we will find when we get up there, that He was not “grading” us on what we thought He was anyway.

It will be a truely new beginning!

Who among us has never wished for a new beginning? Our minds can’t conceive of what He has in store for us. Hallelujah!

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